2013

(Apologies for my self-motivating, vague, pretty lame post about resolutions.  Back to normal soon, I promise.)

I have had "New Years Resolutions" on my mind for quite a few weeks.

As usual I will resolve to make 2013 my bitch when it comes to working out and eating healthier.  But I always say that, and I always try my hardest, and still nothing.  I re-joined double dub two weeks ago and I start training for my next half in a couple of weeks so hopefully both will serve as my motivation to keep my shit together and lose the 30 annoying lbs I have been working on losing since mid 2010.

Other than that shallow and boring resolution I do have four other goals.  

But I am scared.

I am scared to commit. 

I am scared to even write them down.

If I fail I will be disappointed.  Disappointed in myself for letting my fears and excuses take over my dreams.

Some of my goals are very personal, two of them are overwhelmingly scary, one is just purely willpower.  These are not only goals for 2013, but lifetime dreams and bucket list items.  To put it bluntly, to me, they are a big fucking deal.

If I accomplish any one of them I will be proud.  If I accomplish half I will be ecstatic.  If I accomplish all four I will feel like I can take on the world.

But first I need to get the strength and courage to overcome my fears.  All of my goals will involve some degree of pain, and lots of sacrifice.  Am I ready to face that?  Can I conquer the hurdles that are in front of me to reach these goals and accomplish my dreams?  

I hope so.

Happy 2013, friends.